❤ Kiana Keniki ❤

With the new day comes new strength and new thoughts.

Eleanor Roosevelt
karenabad:

This is pretty much what today feels like. Time, My Modern Met, The Today Show, Good Morning America, Huffington Post, Mashable, BuzzFeed and several other media outlets were kind enough to feature my photo project with Olivia. I’m very grateful and appreciative. They’ve taken a simple just for fun personal project that I did with one of my best friends and her daughter, and shared it with many people. Thanks for that guys.

My intentions for this project were not for it to blow up. They were to share on my Tumblr and my Facebook so that my followers and friends could enjoy it, giggle, laugh, and maybe even share if they felt so inclined. I wanted Olive to be able to have something that reminds her of the one time that her silly Aunt came to visit boring, freezing, Indiana and wanted to craft with her and her mom.

Scary and ugly things happen when something you create gets shared with the masses. The trolls suddenly all surface and have to contribute their two cents about a project whose logistics they know very little to nothing about. Whenever videos or projects I make get seen by a lot of people, I get really intimidated and it makes me pull back a little of myself and makes me want to share less. This obviously isn’t fair for people who are kind enough to encourage and love me. Maybe it’s my somewhat debilitating anxiety, but today has been a hot mess. What people say shouldn’t matter, which is why I’ve been trying to steer clear of reading them. Personal attacks against me are one thing and I can handle that, but people cross the line when they say things about Olivia or Cristina and Jon. That, I can’t tolerate, and I hate when people talk shit about people I care about. 

I guess what I wanted to say to my Tumblr community is thanks, it started here. Thanks for still making me feel like this is a (relatively) safe place to share things. I know there are trolls on here too, but they aren’t as vicious as the FB ones I guess. Thanks again guys, I appreciate and love your support, always. Not just for this project, but from the beginning. 

*Olive, if you get older and look back on this, know that I love you very much. You are an amazing little girl and you have the most incredible parents ever. They love you so very much and they are the absolute example in great parenting. Your Auntie Karen loves you too and can’t wait to have more adventures with you in the future. Also, no matter what anyone says, stay true to yourself. You know how much fun you have, you know your intentions, live your life surrounded by those who love and care about you, not people who project their insecurities and put you down. <3

karenabad:

This is pretty much what today feels like. TimeMy Modern Met, The Today Show, Good Morning America, Huffington Post, MashableBuzzFeed and several other media outlets were kind enough to feature my photo project with Olivia. I’m very grateful and appreciative. They’ve taken a simple just for fun personal project that I did with one of my best friends and her daughter, and shared it with many people. Thanks for that guys.

My intentions for this project were not for it to blow up. They were to share on my Tumblr and my Facebook so that my followers and friends could enjoy it, giggle, laugh, and maybe even share if they felt so inclined. I wanted Olive to be able to have something that reminds her of the one time that her silly Aunt came to visit boring, freezing, Indiana and wanted to craft with her and her mom.

Scary and ugly things happen when something you create gets shared with the masses. The trolls suddenly all surface and have to contribute their two cents about a project whose logistics they know very little to nothing about. Whenever videos or projects I make get seen by a lot of people, I get really intimidated and it makes me pull back a little of myself and makes me want to share less. This obviously isn’t fair for people who are kind enough to encourage and love me. Maybe it’s my somewhat debilitating anxiety, but today has been a hot mess. What people say shouldn’t matter, which is why I’ve been trying to steer clear of reading them. Personal attacks against me are one thing and I can handle that, but people cross the line when they say things about Olivia or Cristina and Jon. That, I can’t tolerate, and I hate when people talk shit about people I care about. 

I guess what I wanted to say to my Tumblr community is thanks, it started here. Thanks for still making me feel like this is a (relatively) safe place to share things. I know there are trolls on here too, but they aren’t as vicious as the FB ones I guess. Thanks again guys, I appreciate and love your support, always. Not just for this project, but from the beginning. 

*Olive, if you get older and look back on this, know that I love you very much. You are an amazing little girl and you have the most incredible parents ever. They love you so very much and they are the absolute example in great parenting. Your Auntie Karen loves you too and can’t wait to have more adventures with you in the future. Also, no matter what anyone says, stay true to yourself. You know how much fun you have, you know your intentions, live your life surrounded by those who love and care about you, not people who project their insecurities and put you down. <3

"Night Air"

Night air has the strangest flavor
Space to breathe and time to savor
All that night air has to lend me
Till the morning makes me angry
In the night air
The night air

I’ve acquired a kind of madness
Daylight fills my heart with sadness
Only silent skies can soothe me
Feel that night air flowing through me
In the night air
The night air

I don’t need those car crash colors
I control the skies above us
Close my eyes to make the night fall
Comfort of a world revolving
I can hear the earth in orbit
In the night air
The night air

I’ve acquired a taste for silence
Darkness fills my heart with calmness
And each thought like a thief is driven
To steal the night air from the heavens
In the night air
The night air

Blauer Himmel, die Sonne scheint, was will man mehr?

Blue sky, sun is shining, what else could i wish for? :D

<3